Last night I met Stephanie Nielson.
She is a role model of Strength. Beauty. and Truth.
I felt so close to her, as if she was talking straight to me, when in fact, there were 30 others in the same room.
Last night, Stephanie told me her story. What it felt like to burn. What it felt like to look at herself in the mirror and not see herself looking back. What it felt like to have your own children be afraid to look at you. She told me how she had wanted to give up. She couldn't be a Mom anymore -- how could she be, when she herself couldn't walk or eat, and then later, when she herself didn't know who she was? How could she love her children, if she couldn't love herself?
Hearing this part of her story makes tears run down my cheeks. Do I not feel that same way, too, at times? Do I look in the mirror and wonder 'Where is the real me?' Do I feel inadequate as a mother, unworthy for the important role I have? Do I wish I loved myself more? Do you?
And that is just with my every day life. Sans her plane crash.
And Stephanie was right; I do live the ideal life, just as she did before her crash. When she left on her trip she was a great mom, just like me and you, who had struggles, complaints, and frustrations. But looking back with new eyes, she proudly says, "I had the ideal life. There was no need to complain." I have three beautiful children, and a wonderful husband. I have a healthy and working body. And I really do have it very easy. I do live an ideal life. I am grateful.
The rest of the time spent, Stephanie testified of God. How he is REAL, and she knew it with sacred confirmation. And she felt Him with her every step of the way. And she wished that each one of us does not have to go through what she did in order to feel God's love as strongly as she does.
When she looked at herself in the mirror for the first time, 5 1/2 months after the plane crash, she did not recognize herself. But she knew her eyes, and saw God in her eyes. And she knew right then and there, that she was still herself. That her body is scarred, but it doesn't change who she is. She is still the same Daughter of God who lived with Him before she was born, who lives here on earth with the divine calling as a mother, and who will return and live with Him again.
She reminded me of my inner person, the daughter of God within. She reminded me of the true treasures my children are and the joy in motherhood. "Live Your Life as if in Slow Motion" was her sincere advice to us moms. Live your Life as if you're watching a treasured home video. She showed us this video their family recently made, reminding me to slow down, and create love and memories with my family:
And never forget that you are special.
And God knows you.
And God loves you.